life and death

Life and death.

Today, i had the chance of witnessing a resuscitation being done in the ward. In my mind it is all about, what happened? What are they doing now? I am actually witnessing the 'big' thing in medicine...Adrenaline.. atropine.. airway.. suction... heart rate... etc.. it's just so 'exciting'!
outside the curtain, the relative is sobbing uncontrollably, praying hard that the resuscitation team will be successful in saving her loved one.


and then the breaking of bad news part.

after watching the whole incident, i have a very weird feeling which i couldn't describe till now.

when i saw the patient early in the morning, she was just another patient who's sleeping, and maybe i shall come to check on the case later.
2 hours after that, she has passed away. ..

Disgusting!!!

I couldn't understand how people ( o ya , people of certain kind) can be this disgusting! There's something called hygiene. To tell people that you are from the health care line, and you don't care about all the germs you spread. I guess now i can understand the root of failure in the system.

I couldn't understand how disgusting one's mind can be. Why falsely accused someone for something that you didn't know. Of course we know we deserved better than you. What you have today is not what you worked for... just because.. just because..

I just couldn't stop myself from all these rambling

well, at least now i have another mission to achieve.

无助

遇到不如意的事时
总会感到彷徨与无助

天真的想着传说中的天使或是神仙婆婆
会带来奇迹

或许
是时候自己创造奇迹了

想回家

Feels like going home
Because i am jealous to see people packing bag to go home while i stay here
What a weird reason

I guess it's easier in India
There was no choice
You can't go home even if you wanted to ( haha)

But i should stay here
To complete those stacked up work
Only if i could concentrate and not spend the whole weekend sleeping





on another note:
A Malay friend of mine asked me about Wesak day.
And i totally don't know how to answer
So, i searched the net
"Wesak day encompasses the birth, enlightenment Nirvana, and passing (Parinirvana) of Gautama Buddha." ( in short)


Happy Wesak Day

and

Happy Mother's Day



p/s: but i don't understand how one day can signifies bith , nirvana and passing??
someone pls enlighten me..

to quote

"I hate to be so indecisive, knowing that i have the right to do so.
Why do i let myself wait , when i know it could be better.
I wish for a miracle to happen
To lessen the burden of my heart "

boxes

Boxes finally arrived in Malacca. One of the my boxes broke open but luckily the contents are still fine.
I haven't open all my boxes because i am too exhausted.
My back starting to hurt after helping to sort out the boxes. Hope the disc is still intact.


Through this 'event' , it's clearly shown that how mankind behavior differs.

A great Thanks to those who helped out.

First week

The end of first week in Malacca. So , what did i do for the whole week?
Mon- registration and nothing else
Tues- orientation and get ready for class
Wed- went to Klinik Desa Bukit Piatu . Learn how to do finger prick for Hb count. So dumb that i have to prick my "victim" twice. So painful .. Did a breast examination also.
My BM is so bad that i felt my tougue twisted all the time.
Tues- went to Poliklinik Peringgit. Did booking , BP etc..
Fri- had class..
Sat-The LAN introduction class is quite useless. the info can be given in less than 10 mins, why do we have to use 45 mins of a nice saturday morning for it..

What i realised till now is:
1. it's really inconvenient without a transport in Malacca, unlike the lovely manipal and the auto... i miss Manipal
2. Psychiatry lecturers here are quite interesting ( what i gather from their talk )
3. Malacca is very hot. Just like summer in Manipal. But it can rain all of a sudden. o man, i am not use to Msia weather anymore.
4. hostel room is still lovely so far, as the aircon is satisfying my need. wahahah! ( i guess no other girl is happy with the Ac being so cold)
5. Pasar malam here is pathetic. So few stalls.
6. Community medicine posting here is more useful than those in Manipal, but i am still clueless on how to do the log book.. haih

many things else...

and now i regret that i rejected my mom's offer to come fetch me home.. so dumb.
Maybe i should try getting used to the life here..